March 8, 2006

No Day But Today

The deed is done. The die is cast.

I formally tendered my resignation today with my last day on the 17th. No day but today.

Most people took it in stride, wished me well. There were tears and hugs, plus promises of keeping in touch. My whole week next week is nothing but free lunches and even free dinners. The head of our office seemed calm about it at first then eventually blew up. Yelled that I was making a big mistake...how I didn't think things through...how this is the best job I can ever hope to get...how I didn't use my brain. Kept asking, "how sure are you that six months from now, you wouldn't want to come back here?"

My answer? "I don't know how I'll be feeling six months or a year from now, but I know right now this is the best thing for me."

Did she think after insulting me that I'd change my mind? Who in the right mind would stay after being told you didn't use your brain when you made the decision? Not me.

For someone who doubts my good judgment, she definitely doesn't want to let me go.

I'm proud that I didn't yell back. I'm proud that I stood my ground despite her shrieks. I'm proud for insisting, "I've made up my mind."

Better things await me. Fortune favors the brave.

4 comments:

nandoo said...

it all happened to me some 4 months back... I could recollect each n every moment by reading u r blog...
once decided to move... tis best to move.. no looking back...

And regd that 6 months -
even when we try to recolllect the memories.. human mind often thinks about the good ones... and feels bad sometimes about the decision we make.. but when u really think about the bad ones... you feel proud that you have made a right n bold decision :D

All I could recollect is

Another ditch in the road
You keep moving
Another stop sign
You keep moving on
And the years go by so fast
Wonder how I ever made it through

- From Savage gardern

Paige said...

You have made a hugh step. I had a husband like that once. Said he loved & wanted me but couldn't wait to tell me & show me how useless & worthless I was. I did say once. I moved on & am better for it. You are worth more then that ol'boss will ever know! I pray & wish you much luck. Funny the 17th is a lucky day!

Lene said...

That's tough! I wish you all the best, you deserve that. =)

Cez said...

Thanks for all your kind words. It was a tough decision, one that I thought I would do around June 2006. However, when push came to shove, well, I can't keep allowing them to push me. I had to be good to me and you know what? It feels great.