February 6, 2007

Suddenly, crap hits you out of nowhere

I don't know how it happened. I don't know why it happened.

All I know is that I asked an officemate if she wanted to go to lunch with me. She said yes. On our way to the panini place, we were talking about how cold the office is. Told her I brought my own little heater. Then she said it was cold in our boss's office.

She also wondered if they were hiring someone new. We know they've been interviewing, just not sure for what position. Then she went off and told me how the first person who interviewed me last year did not want me for my current position and did not like
me AT ALL.

I kind of suspected something like that from the get-go from that person, but to get it confirmed out of nowhere...well, I wasn't prepared for it. She was the first person I met in the office. Sometimes she acted like she liked me. But I frequently got a queasy feeling after talking to her. As if she didn't feel honest. Turns out, yeah, I was right.

Anyway, I'm wondering why my officemate suddenly told me that. Where the heck did THAT come from?

Sure, she pointed out that the boss and my mentor wanted me. The final two who decided on hiring me saw my potential to learn the ropes here. Yet another good thing to hear. Clearly, that first person did not win. To begin with, she was not in a decision-making position. It was not up to her. But for this matter to be brought up? It's not as if I cannot live a full, happy life without knowing it. I surely can. So why mention it? On our way to lunch, even. What a great way to whet my appetite.

I'm not at work to win any popularity contests. I'm at work to do my job. I know that I cannot please everybody. I know that one way or the other, I will rub people the wrong way. These things are givens. Even so, it still hurts.

I also know that it's just something I'd have to deal with.

1 comments:

Perfectwound said...

"I'm not at work to win any popularity contests. I'm at work to do my job. I know that I cannot please everybody. I know that one way or the other, I will rub people the wrong way. These things are givens. Even so, it still hurts"

Yup, that's the spirit~!! I always admire people that understands and practice this attitude. But don't go too overboard ok?? haha