November 1, 2007

Restless

I've been feeling antsy and edgy the past couple of months. I'm looking for changes, but I'm not really sure what sort of change I want.

I want to paint the walls at home.

I want to remove the carpet and change it.

I want to move to a different house in our town.

I want to move to a different town, a different city, or even a different state.

I want to find another job, start my own business or even not to work for a while.

I want to live simply. I want to enjoy life, instead of living under constant pressure.

Maybe I need to do something simple so I'll feel there's a change. Say, a haircut. But I did that already last Tuesday. What else? I updated my blog. I traded in my old digital camera. We had our bedroom painted.

I feel so old sometimes. Weary by the routine. I want to shake things up, add spice to my life. In a good way, of course.

Then suddenly today, out of nowhere, I realized that I should be thankful where I am now. Sure, change is not a bad thing. But to simply focus on having change at the expense of the present, and to feel frustrated by how things currently are, isn't exactly how I want to live my life either. What's the point of having change for the sake of change if it's forced? After all, if there's one thing I've learned so far, it's that change happens in its own good time. So now, I will let things unfold as it should.

2 comments:

Lene said...

"I will let things unfold as it should."

And you'll be surprised how things turn out to be wonderful!

How's the haircut? =p

Perfectwound said...

Maybe you should consider a short and relaxing break from your usual routines yah??

I think we all end up in the same place and situations as where we are now mostly by choice, even thought how hard we try to deny it.

Well at least I feel this way. :)