So I've been feeling off lately. Fell off the happy wagon and the thankfulness train. When that happens, I usually avoid dealing with people. I retreat into my own Batcave or even Fortress of Solitude. This time, I even went so far as deleting certain people from my cellphone. I was getting ready to clean up my Facebook friend list, e-mail address book, etcetera as well. It's sort of connected to what I wrote here..."It's easier to keep things to myself than to share with others and get disappointed by them."
Now I realize that I'm going about it the wrong way.
When I feel glum and gloomy, that's the time that I should reach out to others. Keeping it all to myself doesn't do any good. I can choose either to share the burden, or find out what their trials and tribulations are. If things are going great for them, then all's well and good. If not, then it'll take my mind off my own concerns. It'll make me realize that I'm not the only one dealing with things. Everyone has their fair share.
And that's what we're all here for, after all. To be there for one another. We might not have the solutions for each other's problems. But at the very least, someone's listening. Or cares enough to just let me vent. I have to give them the chance and expect the best - that they'll be there for me during the rare times I'm in such a mood. Because I try to be there for them when needed anyway.
"Sometimes we expect more from others because we would be willing to do that much for them." And that statement rings very true for me.