June 28, 2013

Like a hamster on a treadmill

When it's not a good fit, it's not a good fit. And you know it too, right?

It doesn't matter what anyone says, you should know better than other people. Yet so many people at work are trying to convince me that:
1. it's worse out there. Even if it sucks here, at least you're safe. So yeah, stay even if it's a bad situation. After all... 
2. it sucks everywhere. There's nowhere to go. Thus said people who have worked there for 20, 25 years. Made me wonder how they can confidently say it's worse out there when they've never been anywhere.
3. your parents would want you to be in a stable job. What parent wouldn't want that for their children? To know that they're financially secure without worries? Yet what parent would want unhappiness on their children? 

Most days, I feel like a hamster on a treadmill. Running and running while standing still, nowhere to go.

I've tried positive thinking along the lines of "The Secret". I've got my own morning mantra. I pray endlessly, seeking guidance. Most days, I realize that my questions are getting answered. I'm not in the right job. It's not the right place. It never was a good fit. 

I know that I've got to muster that courage to just go. Leave. Now. I did before. I can do it again, right?

Better things are waiting for me. But man, I was braver when I was younger. I know what I'm supposed to do. I just need to be brave and take that step out of here. 


Jon said...

I assume you are actively looking for better employment now. So when you find one, you can hand your resignation. Think of your job now as just a source of income.
I know how you feel. I was "stuck" at my job just before I left for CA. I wanted to leave but stayed till I got to move to CA.
Hang in there.